Farewell~

I've decided not to blog anymore. I'll coop my thoughts up like little matchsticks in a little bottle up in my head. I'll light 'em up one by one every possible day, setting my diary book thing on fire. Imaginary flame of thoughts. I'll flame anyone who pries my thoughts. Not an evil kind of flame, the good imaginary kind.

Things will change. For better or worst, I don't know. The people I once called brothers, faded. The ones I trusted, drifted. The heart I once held, freed. The past is long gone, painful or not. The future is dark and murky, unpredictable. All I have is the present. I'll use the present as best as I can. I'll forge new hope in myself. I'll change things. Or at least try to. This is a pretty long last post. Haha.

.Comfortable by John Mayer.

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I just remembered that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
and rolled down aisle five
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave

I can't remember what went wrong last September
though I'm sure you'd remind me if you had to

our love was comfortable and so broken in

I sleep with this new girl I'm still getting used to
my friends all approve,
say "she's gonna be good for you"
they throw me high fives
she says the Bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was so dirty

life of the party and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish Miles from Coltrane

our love was comfortable and so broken in
she's perfect
so flawless
or so they say

she thinks I can't see the smile that she's faking
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweatpants
no makeup
so perfect

our love was comfortable and so broken in
she's perfect
so flawless
I'm not impressed
I want you back

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My first song, will be for you..